lost nights in her eyes

GOD, how we miss the sounds of a Friday night! Standing under the street lamps as if a million drops of dark light sparkle around us. En-casing Us in a heavenly glow that was you! Watching you smoke your cigarette and drink your wine, the vapors of smoke filter your face like an old time movie we begged you to watch with us. your lips press up to the bottle and sip, leaving only a mere drop of wine like a red gradient rainbow from the lip to the bottle neck. We obsess over your smile like gold miners hording the small fragment of gold they have discovered. The Friday night clouds form images of you that our eyes can only see, her brown hair blows back with strips of blond thrown in. the sound of summer and the noise of winter confuse our memory. When was it that we lost you?  Was it near or far, did we even talk about the idea of not being with you ever again?  Questions of which we do not have answers for, nor do we even want. on a Friday like tonight I ponder and wonder what could and should have been. yet we are here and you are not, we lost you to the annals of time and memory.

My crucifixion

My crucifixion

Devil in me wants you to stay

The angel in me wants you to stay as well

But knows it has to let you go

The lover in me needs you close

The hater in me wants you to go away

But hates itself for thinking so

The father in me needs you to learn

The failure in me wants you to run away

But tells itself to lie for you

My crucifixion

My imperfection

My sadness

My welfare

Devil in me tells the angel to fly off

The lover tells the hater to fuck off

The father keeps nurturing

As the failure keeps failing

My crucifixion

My imperfection

My sadness

My welfare

Devil man and angel walk hand in hand

The lover figure and hater attack each other constantly

As the father keeps telling the failure to be good

And they all know they have no control over you

My crucifixion

My imperfection

My sadness

My welfare

Robert greenwood 11/13/03

Poem/song/therapy

Goodbye my lover of time

goodbye my lover of time

don’t blame my shame on love
don’t take away my good night kiss
don’t steal away my love

say goodbye
to my goodnight kiss
say hello
to my sadness

my impending emptiness

this is my last request for you
please don’t change who you are to me
don’t dye your hair  a shade of grey
don’t perm nor press
and don’t color your nails this is my request
just stay the same way as you were before the night
I screwed it all up for us
I’m just a fool inside who can’t change your mind

no gift can mend your shattered heart
and no words could save this broken soul of yours

don’t blame my shame on love
don’t take away my good night kiss
don’t steal away my love

say goodbye
to my goodnight kiss
say hello
to my sadness

my impending emptyness

goodbye my love
is all you say to me now as you turn away and walk
so very fast out the side door
the clouds begin to pour
rain drops on the floor

goodbye my love goodbye

don’t blame my shame on love
don’t take away my good night kiss
don’t steal away my love

say good bye
to my goodnight kiss
say hello
to my sadness

my impending emptyness

goodbye  goodbye goodbye goodbye

robert greenwood songs/poem 2/15/04

Saturday Night (poem 2004)

Saturday Night So many times in our lives we feel the need to cry.
So give me a reason why all the love in life must try
To get rid of itself wastefully, unattainable and with most haste.
Like a flower that blooms just to wilt and die, I felt my heart…
Well a piece of it just crumbled and flaked away on Saturday
Midday, my soul fell weak and shriveled. To the sounds of a friend,
More perfect than most, stop by to tell us she has finally reached the coast.
The ocean breeze, I guess it’s better than the perfect trees that we planted together!
Her boat had docked for about 3 to 4 hours and it wishes to sail away and never darken our….
Let’s not become over poetic this is the story of love come and love lorn to love must go with another
Tell me something new and I will show you why I hate my hatred, why I hate life for it has not shown us anything useful.
I hate the time we lose. All the phone calls she doesn’t send, I hate myself forgiving in, as I surrender to the idea of losing
To the fame of unknown love that will never be fulfilled because we have to stand idlly by and let it fly
For a man most educated, the only word I can say is something so small and insignificant
I hate myself for letting you get away
I hate the dreams we have of you
The love we shared with you
The companionship you let us reach
The coffee we drank every Sunday when we would meet
The kisses you gave the hugs we squeezed
The hopelessness of truth
Saturday change the outcome but not how we feel
We love you now more than ever
But will stand back as you congeal into the arms of another you really don’t love
But with this I say from the both of us good luck

With love,
We give .
With hope,
We shared.
With heavenly arms,
We hold your heart
And tell you we shall never let you come apart.

Your angels wait near, and the fiction of our future once so dear to us now just a dream.
We love thee and pray to be with you one day.
Ever and ever the never ending September
The time we learn the truth about us now that a year may be nearly past now in this cold
January we look to a warmer climate in you maybe…. but I could be wrong

To you the golden goddess
From the angels of dreams


A short poem of losing it all and gaining nothing back
By Robert Greenwood

New York Anime Festival at Kinokuniya

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So at Kinokuniya on 6th ave and 40 street, they had a panel of artist from around the Manga-verse !

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the panel was amazing and the crowd that was sitting nearby enjoyed every minute

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but due to the limited and flat out lack of size for the panel space most fans had to stand off to the side and far in the back behind book cases, along with people who were inside the cafe area talking over the panel. If and When they do this again we feel holding a panel at a ny comic book convention maybe the best thing.

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We had a blast and we love New York Anime Festival and Kinokuniya

just wish we had some more room to hear the panel better!

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